Late night snack
Kategori: Me Life
Even though I know how much you hurt your words still have some power over me. I don't know how to get rid of the feeling you give me, but I know I want it gone. It's difficult to see yourself as others see you, although that is what I try to do. I try to see the good that sometimes outweighs the bad. But in those dark moments the bad parts of me take control and I find myself hating even the most positive things that I can muster. Is it weird? That behind closed doors is a person who knows she's loved but still finds it in her to feel rejected and alone? How does one get rid of those consuming feelings that eats away at your flesh. Leaving nothing but a pile of dust for others to form into a wanted shape. Those shapes that make you feel so good, so involved with everything, until it transforms you into an unrecognizable creature with a disfigured face and ugly personality. How do you stop? How do you say no? Those are the most frequently asked questions in the forum that is my thoughts. Have I finally reached a me that I long to meet? Or am I a mere formation of others preconceived idea of me. No matter what is actually true, I find myself quite happy. Quite at ease with the thought of being who I am, and the idea that it is okay to grow. Find the matter. Matter the find.
